Klara Li

I dropped Felicia off at the airport and it took two hours all together. Most of the train rides I just slept. I´m kinda tired today because I didn´t sleep so much last night. I was having kind of a conflict with the guy who moved in with me. He´s been here for one and a half week and it´s really not working for me. He is nice and he cleans and cooks but we don´t really click. In some friendly ways yes but nothing more. I asked him to come and stay with me after we met and he was leaving Berlin. I thought he wanted to come here to be with me but as it turned out it´s more about being in Berlin and just hanging out with me as a friend. I didn´t really understood that and now he feel tricked and I feel used. 

 

He doesn´t really have any money so he can´t rent his own place so now he´s just living with me for free. He will stay until the beginning of september and I have no idea how this is going to end. I think I´m a really naive romantic for better or worse. I don´t regret asking him to come because I believe in taking risks but I admit that it was kinda stupid. But I reallt thought we clicked thoose two times we first met, so I just went for it and now he´s really uncomfortable and I´m frustrated. I want my space back but I still understand that I gotta take the consequences of my choices. He´s looking for another place to stay though so I hope it will work out. 

 

Lessons learned from this. Don´t invite a stranger to live at your place for free for a month. A week or something maybe or at least make sure you have a back up plan! I don´t know what he expected moving in with a girl he hardly knew without thinking she was hoping for anything from it. And I really don´t know what I was thinking either. He lives on the other side of the planet and he´s young and looking for fun. But it´s ok to make mistakes and act stupid sometimes and this is something I will look back thinking is hillarious. The hard thing is just that I´m putting him in a lot of stress and he makes me feel bad and rejected.