MENY
Long time no see. I´m sorry but I really have´t been structured this week. Life is still great but I´ve been having some emotional bullshit, maybe it was like that last week also or every week actually... But there´s always something new or maybe a circle of disturbing emotions circulating. There´s not so much that´s been going on. I´ve been in school and it´s starts to get pretty busy becuse we´re all doing some kind of exam where we need to play an original song with arangements and we´re all playing in each others songs. I´m doing five songs including my own and other crazy people do even more. I think it will be fun though.
Tonight I´m at Amanda´s place. We were trying to write a song for my assessment but it went kinda slow but we have some ideas at least. Now she´s working on a song she´s kinda reproducing and I´m sitting with my computer trying to come up with something productice to do. Yesterday there was an event with the crew but I had to skip it because I wasn´t feeling so well and it´s been affecting school this week and I didn´t wanted to risk missing out on more. Tonight there´s another halloween party I´m invited to but I´m not going to that either. I´m not really in a party mood and really feel like I want to be productive in some way. The wifi in my house doesn´t work at the moment though which is so annoying but might also be good since I can´t watch Netflix.
Now I´m gonna try to work on an essay I think because I´m really not feeling in contact with my creativity but still feel motivated so might be the best option. This afternoon I bought some swedish candy and went home to read a book, of course I fell asleep and woke up a few hours later. How hard can it be to keep up an normal daily rythm? Really hard in my case apparently. But it´s ok. I´m trying to be nice to myself because I feel like I´m failing when I´m not on top all the time but it´s impossible to be. I just need a little structure and good routines.
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