Klara Li

I´m sitting in school with a friend from class writing an essay for music business. It´s only 500 words but it´s a little different referencing system then the one I´m use to. I think it´s going ok but I´m starting to loose focus. This weekend was total crap. I didn´t go out partying because I wanted to be productive and do music and other homeworks. But I just slept the whole weekend except from reading a book and painting. My wifi broke down and I was just so unmotivated about everything. I still felt kinda low this morning but it´s getting better as the day goes on. I think I just needed to get activated again. 

 

I don´t know what more is going on actually. I´m feeling a bit uninspired and unmotivated from time to time. I want to try to do more mindfullness to get more grounded and maybe that way feel more in contact with myself. I also haven´t been thinking so much about spiritual stuff lately and maybe that´s what´s missing in my life at the moment. I need to slow down and be more present in the now. I´m just somewhere in my adventurous dreams at night or planning and stressing a bit during the days. I´m having fun with friends but when I´m alone I´m not focused at all. I´m trying to clean my house, structure tasks and make food and I don´t feel inspired to sit down and write music. I know that sometimes you need to treat your music making like a job to actually get stuff done because I know it can be great a lot of times when I actually do sit down. But now when I´m so unfocused I try to write and get annoyed because nothing works and I feel bad and just think that I suck at everything. So I need to start out from a better place in my mind and I´m just trying to get there.