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I started at BIMM music institute in Berlin for two main reasons. I wanted to have time to really focus on my music and develop as an artist. I felt that I was stuck, like really stuck. I hadn´t written on single song in a whole year and the year before that was also really low. But I started to get inspiration. I wanted to do electronic music on my own and don´t just do the full band set up with instruments. I wanted to be more in control and be able to work on my own. But to do that I needed more knowledge. I study songwriting and we don´t really do producing but there´s extra classes to take. I don´t think it would have been right for me to study production for three years because I don´t want to be a professional producer I just need to be able to make songs that I can develop further with a producer or maybe just get some help with the final touches like mixing and mastering. The other reason was because I wanted to continue living in Berlin and that´s why I choose to take huge loans to be able to pay for this british private school. I can talk more about my views on private schools and more political stuff in another post because otherwise this one will be way to long.
My dream is to become an artist and songwriter. I want to write my own songs, perform them live and work with music and other art forms together. I want to do it because it´s my passion. I want to create something from the things I experience. It makes it feel more meaningful and somehow more real. It makes it more beautiful because you create a final product out of all the things around and inside of you. I´m a person who loves attention and being on stage. I feel comfortable in my personality and with my opinions which makes me want to share it with the world. I want to make a positive impact on people. I guess it´s a really strong statement to say that I´m feeling confident with myself as a person but I do. Not all the time but on good days I really like myself. I see the positive side of things and believe in kindness. I think it´s important to be strong in yourself to be an official artist. When I write lyrics it´s very honest and raw and I stand for every single word. But I think that if more people would hear my songs I would be questioned and criticised. It´s natural but I need to be strong enough to handle it. I need to know who I am in the core. I know who I am even if I´m always changing and developing. When I am conscious and mindful I can really feel it. Artist these days really have a big influence on people and if I got the opportunity I would really use the space for something that´s important to me. I believe in feminism, socialism, taking care of the environment, being kind and for those who feel the urge, being in contact with their spiritual side. I believe that art heals and make us develop as persons, both through creating but also by observing, listening and feeling.
I don´t want to be rich because I feel like it would make me superficial and I´m really working against that side of myself. I don´t want to handle my feelings by consumption. I don´t want to live in a mansion and have fancy stuff. But of course I would love to not be in economical stress and be able to buy nice food and good quality belongings. I would love to travel and help my family and friends out to. But if I got more money then that I would want to donate it. I don´t think any human deserves more than another. That´s why it shouldn´t be right of me to earn a lot of money and just take it and spend it on bullshit stuff. I could go on about how wrong the system of the world is but I won´t today. But I just want to say that we all can do something. Maybe donate an amount of money we can afford, recycle or trash, avoid eating meat, buying clothes second hand and be kind to each other.
This post might be a bit all over the place but when I think about what kind of artist I want to be I do not only think about the music I also think about how I want to represent myself as a person and what I would say if I had the chance. My music is not so political, it more about emotions. My life is more than my inner world and an artist can spread more than just their music.
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