Klara Li

This day is going well so far. I woke up around 9 and ate breakfast while I watched the Avicii movie. My teacher in music business recommended it and I understands why. It´s a really tragic example on how the industry can ruin an artist with the all the stress and pressure about delivering to not lose money. Afterwards I cleaned the apartment, went grocery shopping and made broccoli soup. I feel really good today. I´m stabilised and feel like I´m kinda organised. I feel a little lazy though because I know that the most important thing to do today is to work with my new midi-controller but I´m doing everything else instead and wouldn´t mind just watching another movie and sleep. But I know I feel better doing stuff before resting so I´m drinking coffee and eating chocolate now to get some energy. Actually I should maybe take a walk outside instead of falling down in the usual trap of sugar and koffein.

Yesterday I performed with the crew at the Venus festival in Berlin. It was the people who I usually work with plus a lot of new girls who where super lovely. I don´t really know what I think about the festival. It wasn´t even really a festival more like a convention. There where a lot of different brands, pornstars and people selling sextoys there making advertising. A lot of photographers, both professionals and hobby ones. So everywhere me and the crew went people where taking photos. I guess because we wore fetish outfits and most visitors just had their everyday clothes. It was a little fun to feel like a superstar but in the same time it disgusted me to see all the old men desperately trying to take photos of young girls. I doesn´t have to be wrong but I just felt objectified. I doesn´t mind showing myself in a sexual way but then I want it to be more about the things I do and wear more than just some dudes looking for ass and titties. It´s a little hard to explain but I love the part about the fetish scene where it´s about discover and living out sexuality in safe conditions. I don´t mind consensual violence or other dirty stuff but I want it to feel genuine and be available for everyone. This big event felt more like being in porn-narnia. There where just huge pictures of stereotypical sexy girls everywhere, not even stereotypical sexy guys. It was a lot of marketstands that where all about sexchats online and other services where you can pay for sexual actions. It became clear to me that the whole event was about pleasing heterosexuall men.

There where a really fun situation after our second show when a guy from the audience wanted to come up on stage and take a picture together with all the girls. He walked up there all confident and started posing. It was just such a stupid situation, like he was the lord of us all. Then one of the mistresses bended over him and pulled out her fake dick (that looks incredibly real) the guy got so stressed and uncomfortable, it was hilarious. He really got what he deserved. To be mentioned she told him that the dick was fake so it wasn´t sexual assault but the stage manager was still pissed. 

I didn´t get any good photos but I will try to take some today to show you the environment. The best I have for now is this yellow stuffed dicks.

Later everyone was going to Insomnia for some after party but I wasn´t really up or it. Instead I went to a party at my classmates place. It was nice and we played some music but I was tired and over socialised so I went home early. It was actually my first german home-party except from that one time I was at the birthday party of a friend from the guy I was seeing at the time. This was kinda like a swedish party but with less heavy drinking and maybe some more marijuana.