MENY
Today I was in school as usual and afterwards I had dinner with Fanny and her friend. We didn´t hang out for so long though but it was cosy. I got home and did a workout. I´m trying to get it into a routine. I´ve been doing it everyday this week so far and done some yoga/stretching exercises and some tro build strenght. I´m actually pretty good at push ups and can do 30 in a row. Might not sound that impressive to someone who works out a lot but I´m still proud. It feels good to really use my body and get stronger. I want to feel more energized and not so weak. I have a bad habit of getting obsessed with gaining result when I work out though and then it´s just becomes stressfull. I´m trying to work out a little a lot of times instead of pushing myself crazy hard which always breaks me down both physically and mentally. I do 20-30 minutes these days which feels manageble and doesn´t make me bored.
Afterwards I made a bubblebath. The water was to hot though and even though I filled the tub up with more cold water my body was burning. I got a dizzy feeling and felt really weak which felt a bit unpleasant. It happens sometimes when I´m in the bathtub and is kinda weird, it might be about the heat.
I´ve been feeling extra sensitive this week. Maybe it´s something about hormones or like a recovery phase after all the stress with the guy. I´ve been a little low some moments but I still feel like my life is really great at the moment. It´s nice to be able to separate these things. That it´s just some bad days and not that my whole life situation is a mess. Today I was almost (tears in the eyes though) crying in front of my class beacuse a girl had written such a beautiful song. It was in german but after a while and with a little help with some translation I understood the most part of it and it was so sad but in a beautiful way which made it even more sad.
I use to be more sad, the emotion had a big place in my life for a long time or at least during long periods. I both felt the happy-sad and the sad-sad though. Sometimes things just made me so emotional it could be music, peoples interaction with each other or stuff on the television. I was just fragile and got overwhelmed and cried. This week and especially today I´m back in that feeling and I don´t mind because a lot of times it makes me more creative when I´m able to really take everything in, even if it get´s to strong easily.
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