Klara Li

Today at have an introduction day at university. I hadn´t really understod that and just thought it was a small meeting for me with some teachers. I woke up late and ran out the door. We got a lot of information and our student ID´s. Afterwards I went to have coffee with Fanny and another girl who´s also from Sweden. It was a really nice afternoon and we sat at Waynes Coffee for a long time. Afterwards I went babysitting. The boy is still really sad when he´s mom is not around so today we played the all three of us. I can relate to the separation anxiety even if mine works in another way. I´m not scared to be without my mom anymore but one of my worst fears is to be abandoned. So it sucks and this little guy is already feeling the sadness. 

 

I´m so excited to start school though. I´m going to get my shit together, at least that´s my ambition. Because now when I decided to start at this expensive as fuck school and give all my time to this I really want to do it properly. My work on the fetish scene is also important but it´s not the number one. I see it as a proffessional hobby but I know that I will have a little less time for it now but it´s still manageble I think. I will see because I still hope to be able to work/attend events like once a week. It´s important to be active but of course it depends on how much I need to do for school. My plan is to try to spend as little money as possible so I don´t have to work so much and will have more time to study. Because it´s also important to have free time and if I live more on a budget in my everyday life I will save both time and money. But I want to continue the babysitter job so I get some extra money even if it won´t be so many hours per week, maybe like 28 euros a week but it´s still money, but I´m not sure how everything will work out yet. All I know is that the boy is a little cutie and I think it will be lovely when we get to know each other a little better. 

 

I also make some small money from the whipping sessions but I hope to get more clients now since I started to become a mistress (domina) for real. I still have a long way to go to be really proffessional but I know enough to do some sessions together with my mentor. I´m not having sex with the people I whip or do other more physical actions than whipping them and maybe do some wax play. It´s not the way my mentor work and not the way I want to work either. Of course there can be some sexual activities if you bring someone you like and do it for fun. But if there´s random men who´s coming and paying and especially in private that is not allowed or wanted. I never do sessions without my mentor. I partly need him for support but also for safety because he´s a grown man and people don´t dare to behave bad and try to touch me when he´s there. When I just whip random people it´s usually not that sexual for me but I still enjoy it. I get out a lot of energy and also get positive energy when they like it. It´s also a little hard for me to fully relax since I need to focus so much on the technique at this point.

 

I just want to make it clear again that babysitting and my work on the fetish scene is two things I keep completely separated. Children has nothing to do with the bdsm-scene and people can be great parents or babysitters even if they have such interests as long as they keep it in private for children. So this is my two jobs at the moment and I really value them both a lot. I feel really excited about life at this moment. I just need to clean my home and start cooking real food and I might get my shit together.