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It´s been a sunny weekend. I´ve been to the park with Kaspar and that´s pretty much everything that has been going on. Yesterday we walked around Treptower Park and I brought my camera. Today we went to Volkspark Friedrichshain and read books in the sun. There was a lot of people outside this weekend but everyone was in really small groups. It was so many small groups though so it didn´t feel weird or unusual.
Kaspar in Treptower Park
I´ve started reading a book about how to be productive with creativity. It´s called ”The Artist´s Way” by Julia Cameron and it seems really promising. I really need to get some inspiration and help on how to be productive and have the discipline to try to write stuff even when I feel low or uninspired. My problem is definitely that I´m sitting down writing to little. Of course it´s not good to force yourself to write but I think it can be good to force yourself to try. At the moment I´m doing nothing. It´s just like last summer when I had all the time in the world but didn´t do anything.
I´ve started to read some books and have put up my painting stuff. I feel a bit excited about writing more in swedish, maybe poems or short texts. I did it a lot before. I made small projects where I wrote som texts or poems and then printed it out. I shared it with some friends and felt satisfied because I managed to finish something. I feel exited about creating but music feels hard. I really need to start seeing it in smaller step. I want to create more electronic music but it´s been feeling so hard and hopeless. But what I actually should do is breaking it down into smaller steps. I know that I should start by creating some sounds or melodies in Ableton but I have barely started with that either. I´ve watched a lot of Youtube videos about how to use the program and I aslo took an extra course in school but I´m not getting anywhere unless I start working. Omg it´s so frustrating how lazy I can be.
I´m a really productive person in general. I´m good at getting started with stuff that needs to be done. Like grocery shopping, searching for a new apartment and starting with essays in time. Not always of course but in general. But my songwriting is really going slow. I´ve been coming up with ideas on the guitar but nothing sounds like I want to. Everything sounds indie and I´m done with indie. Two years ago when I lived in Sweden I played in a indie band and it was great but I have a new vision now. Nothing happens with that vision unless I´m doing something about it though. That´s why I´m gonna post this text and then keep on reading the book about creative productivity.
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