Klara Li

Another day is happening and I just finished practising german. I´m doing Duolingo again. It´s good for learning some basics in different languages and you can download it for free. It´s especially good for learning words but doesn´t explain the grammar so well. If you do it on the computer you don´t have limited lives that you can run out of if you´re answering wrong to much. I used to go to german class here in Berlin which was really fun depending on the teacher. I´m easily getting annoyed when things are to strict and when you´re forced to listen and participate. Of course it´s good to do so but I just need to do things in my own time. Sometimes I´m super productive and other times I really can´t focus at all. I guess it might be like that for most people but I can´t have someone telling me what to do, then I just get angry and refuse to do anything. I think it´s my child brain that´s still going strong. When I was in school I always sat outside the classroom studying because I could not handle to feel watched and controlled. 

 

I´m trying to develop some routines and ideas about what to do while being inside. I know that school will run some online courses but it won´t start until two weeks. Until that I need to keep myself busy to not get mad or depressed. I´m trying to get into cocking. I think it can be fun sometimes but mostly I´m to lazy and uninspired. Now I´m gonna try to learn new recipes so I can level up from eating fish sticks and pasta with feta cheese all the time. I´m also gonna try to practise german everyday with Kaspar. It´s extra important for us to develop our knowledge in the language since we need to apply for jobs this summer. I made a list of the things that I could do at home so I can get inspired if I´m bored and can´t get out of bed. Often when I don´t have anything planned the day just seem hopeless and I feel like I could just continue on sleeping. But I always feel worse afterwards. I know that if I´m not going outside during the whole day I´m getting anxious or just even more slow in the evening. 

 

It actually feels good to not being able to do so much outside. It gives me more time to rest and focus on things I normally don´t have time for. I don´t think it will be fun forever but today I actually feel kinda good. The only things I´ve done today is cleaning, grocery shopping, practising german and later I will make dinner.e

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